I feel like I’ve been through a war. I’m very, extremely tired. It’s been very bad few days – days that felt like weeks. Days that dragged on like a nightmare that was never going to end. I’m glad it’s over now. I still feel weak and tired, partly due to lack of sleep, partly because improper nutrition. That I’ve gone on schedules like this for weeks and months at a time in the past amazes me. That I managed to get out of it alive, without any serious damage is just as astounding. The last few days only proved how much I really do not want unnecessary stress in my life – job related or otherwise. It’s just not fucking worth it. Whatever it is.
It has quieted down now. In a few more months I can completely forget everything I have learned about real estate and not have to deal with it for the rest of my life – or at least until I decide to buy my own house. Thinking about it now – it would actually be very very nice to have a house in Richmond, on Strawberry Street. Wishful thinking… but then, it’s my dream - I can dream about whatever I want. So a cute little Victorian in the heart of
It’s almost weekend. I’m going to Baltimore, to take pictures of the slums and check out the Inner Harbor. There’s a baseball game that I’ll have to suffer through though, an activity that sounds pointless, if not plain ridiculous. It might be fun though, watching crowds of people screaming and going absolutely nuts about something as uninteresting as a bat and a ball. But then, i'm easily amused - so who knows, i might even like it.
Summer’s almost here. No particular plans except to try and get the most of my stay in Richmond. Take a trip to Brandeis, check out the place before I move, look at apartments. And then August, and everything after… and I am actually really looking forward to it. One thing I know better than anything else is that I really really want to go to school , and Brandeis sounds just the place for me.
I will be sad leaving Richmond. But that's a long and drawn out lament that i dont want to get into now. The plan though, is to come down here as often as I can and no one knows better what it feels being split. The distance between Richmond and Boston is nothing compared to the other side of the world. It might even work out well in the end…
This time next year I’ll be looking for internships – DC area for summer, overseas for fall. Then research. Thesis. Graduation. And a complete blank beyond that point. I have no clue where I will end up – but then again there’s always that house on Strawberry Street and the dream to make Richmond a home…
Maybe one day – too soon to tell. It’s not time yet.
3 comments:
Nika, your post resonated with me big time. Once upon a time I saw myself working for the UN or some other international organization, but not anymore. In part because I have seen the waste of money and the inefficiency and the political games being played there. In part because I have learned from experience that I function better when working on a smaller scale and with less layers and bureaucracy and more room for my own initiative. I am not one of those "planners" either, I am more like a "searcher" as well. In fact I am quite happy doing my thing in Armenia on a small scale but immediately seeing results and actually seeing and experiencing first hand the change in people's lives. That is much more fulfilling to me.
Myrthe,
Thank you for stopping by, and thanks for posting a comment. I have been reading your blogs both at The Armenian Odar and Expat Life, and in a way i feel like i know you - or at least have seen you and run into you at some point, somewhere in Yerevan - and even if not, i'm sure i know people who know people who know you - you know how Yerevan, and Armenia in general is... everybody knows everybody else.
Thank you for your comment again, and thanks for adding weight to what i had to say - your word is worth a lot more than what i know by merely observing and reading books. I admire you and have to admit - i'm jealous as well. I hope one day i'll be able to do my own little projects and consider myself one of the searchers - till then, there's a lot to learn and a lot to grow. Who knows, maybe one day, when i'm back in Armenia, i'll get to properly meet you...
Nika, I did run across your blog already quite some time ago, but for whatever reason didn't follow up on that and didn't hang around. I don't remember why, lack of time, overload in my feedreader. But a few weeks ago someone visited my blog through your link to me (I think the one you put in your post on your blogreads) and I came back and spent a lot of time sniffing around. Ended up adding your blog to my feedreader this time around. ;-)
As for "knowing" each other: I wouldn't be surprised at all if there is someone we both know or who knows someone we both know. Yerevan IS a small town! And do let me know if you are ever back in Armenia!
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