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I cannot account for the last five years. Sure, I can enumerate the events that took place during this time, like getting a job, quitting running, getting engaged, getting married, buying a house, going to Rome, publishing a paper, getting a cat, etc.

But besides these events, everything else is a blur. I cannot account for either my mental or emotional states, mostly because I do not think I was aware of these states, or of myself as much... It is easy to lose this awareness when one is busy thinking about unmeasurable sets, or convergence of recursive sequences... They leave little time or desire to think about anything else, existential or otherwise...